Why Am I Such A Terrible Husband?
If there’s one thing I shouldn’t be messing up, it’s being a good husband. It seems like every time I turn around I’m failing again. It pains me to think about how many people have made the comment to me “your going to make a good husband”. I don’t know what the true definition of “good husband” is but I don’t think I’m it. It just about scares me to think about becoming a father someday as I’ll probably mess that up too.
It just seems that when you are married all of a sudden you are torn every-which-way, and no matter which way you choose you are wrong. Someone is let down, someone’s feelings are hurt. There are days that come that I feel like my wife was better off without me. I know this is a bad attitude to have but it hurts so much to see my wife upset because I’ve made the wrong decision.
All I can do each day is to go to God and ask for His direction. All I want for my marriage is it to be pleasing to God. I need God’s direction here because I can’t make it work on my own. Well, once again my morning is ticking away.
Tim… you are an amazing husband. I think that you are always trying to put me first and forgetting what you want or desire… I don’t think that getting what you want/desire makes you a bad husband. That is what marriage is all about. We need to be able to give and take… and I want to make sure that I’m not doing all the taking… I want to give you some of the things you desire as well. I love you!